So….

I have completely lost my dedication towards furthering this website. . .

I have no goal for it
No cool ideas that i can easily incorporate into it.

Guess i will just use it for my slight blogging whenever i feel the urge to log in.
Also, Forum is back online if anyone feels the urge.

Well,

To do a small entry here goes…

I am as of recently attempting to make some changes in my life.

Work:
Had an interview for what seems to be a very promising job that i will hopfully be getting sometime in early January. Would be working at least 40hrs a week which would be a big plus in comparison to my current 32hrs a week with the current company. The dollar and a quarter raise would help alot for me to replinish my bank account.

Life:
I do not know what has been going on with me lately. I have so many things running around in my head and i cant make any sense out of half of it. Being so lonely but yet still ruining the chances of relationship with people. Being around friends and family is not cutting it. I feel there is a huge void that needs to be filled. Its just so hard for me to meet people with the intentions of developing some type of relationship. I need to figure something out soon because this constant unhappiness is truely taking its toll on me hardcore. Ahh sigh the world can be such an evil place.

I have recently heard that my “father” wishes to see my sister, mother and me. I have no idea what has caused this to come up but it greatly confuses me. He would not even look me in the face or speak in my direction when we were dealing with court non sense. Which i have come to terms with myself about, I never really cared about the money. The major reason i went after him was just the chance for him to look me in the eye and to apologise. Or at least say i fucked up my bad. But alas it never happened which truely just upset me more and caused more pain and troubles for me. As much as i hate to admit it and even with me constantly hiding emotions, i truely wished things would have ended positively.

Tech:
Recently purchased a Motorola Droid from Verizon. I have greatly enjoyed the step from Blackberry into the Android world. So many apps and fun things to play around with in Android. I have been reading up on linux to try and teach myself some things to be able to play around with the operating system. I will probably never actually develop an application for it but it is nice to start and understand the process involved.

Got me a copy of Windows 7 Ultimate. Now i just have to back up some files, folders and programs and i will be set to wipe my main Operating System HD and make the switch. Everyone who i have talked to about Windows 7 has highly praised it. Even the man who from the first time he heard of it talked so much trash about Microsoft and how they have seriously screwed their operating systems, Yes even he has fallen in love with it. I guess I owe it to myself and give it a run and see what happens. My system should hopfully fly on it. The great resource handling and preformance gains should be amazing.

Theres my update.
Thanks for dropping by.